So im homeee nd i have a lil something to share

I just feel the need to let all this out.

Last night i had the most intense conversation with someone about our pasts nd how we both screwed up soo muchh during freshman year.

And i jus realized that even thoughh i have no regrets, i have one main thing that is about as close to a regret as you can go without actually regretting it...if that makes sense.

It was jus so intense because i was saying stuff that i havent told ANYONE. nd the entire time tears were streaming down my face. i wasnt crying but the tears were jus streaming down my face.

At one point i was so anxious i couldnt stop shaking nd i wanted to jus run out the door nd leave everything behind for a few hours.

Nd the funny thing is we were jus comparing things on how we got caught, how long, what we used nd stuff like that. [sorry for bein vague but i would rather not share exactly what was goin on.] I mean we weren't like giving each other tips because i think we're both over it, but we were jus talking about all that stuff nd jus having symthay for each other i guess you could say.

Even thoughh i had tears streaming down my face, that whole conversation made me feel so much better cause i finaly let EVERYTHING out.


I don't regret anything. But i could definatly do without somethings in my past.
[[which really wasnt too long ago. jus like 4 months ago till it was all over.]]

So i guess i have a tip for those of you reading this.
If you have a secret about your past, find someone you can completely trust that you thinkk can maybee relate somehow [[<-- i thinkk thats the most important cause they can actualy give you real imput not jus 'oh that sucks im sorry']] nd let everythingg out. youll feel alot better

im leaving

on vacation till august 1st:\

this is a lil rant

So I'm jus a lil fed up that my parents don't support me in anything; more specifically my wardrobe.

My parents thinkk that I should be some lil cookie cutter girl where the truth is I dress "out there" but really its not even that "out there" its jus mostly different. Honestly i wishh i could dress more out there without my parents being stupidd about it. Liike a couple days ago i wore a skirt over my jeans nd put a belt over it nd it looked really cute nd when i walked outside to walkk to my friends hosue my mom was talking to our neighbor nd she looks at me nd gives me a very subtle "look". nd that jus bugged me so muchh. I mean would she rather me dress provocatively?

I jus wishh my parents would support me in my taste. It would be so muchh easier to express myself. It's like they're trying to change me; which defiantly isn't happening.

believe

I believe every girl has a right to yell and scream and not get weird looks
I believe that every girl has a dream that has yet to be achieved
I believe no one is truly happy until they learn to love themselves
I believe miracles happen everyday in every way
I believe friends care more then therapists
I believe creativity is something everyone has, even if they haven't found it yet
I believe everyone's best quality is there individuality and that is something that shouldn't be thrown away
I believe you learn something from everyone, whether you like them or not
I believe photographs aren't beautiful unless you capture the soul
I believe everyone still has an inner child that is waiting to burst
I believe music saves people
I believe a whisper is beautiful
I believe words ruin certain moments
I believe judgment is the worst flaw in a person
I believe rain will wash away your feelings
I believe do you?

quotess

My hair is offcially dyed:]
jus thought i'd share that hehe.
im more in the mood for quotes so i thinkk im goin to do some of those.

You know how some peole
hear a song that makes
them jus wanna get up nd
dance?
But then they don't.
Well, im one of those people
who lets their body move
to the music

When you enter a certain stage in your life
you going to wonder
where everyone went
what happened to your life
and what could have prevented this from happening

[referring to life]
"Its all simple to sum up
live life
do good
be happy
don't let things get to you"
--bestfriiend/hero

Don't let things jus happen to you
react
be sad
be happy
be exxcited
be pissed off
but don't be numb
becuase then it would be liike you
never existed

Someone should sue Disney
for making every girl
believe one day there
prince charming will come

my mind came to a blank
hehehe

some people drive me crazy

Have you ever had that one friiend that jus drove you crazy?
they think they know exactly whats going on nd make assumptions about everyone nd everything, but since they dont take the time to actually ask the source of her assumptions shes really wrong, dead wrong?

those people jus annoy me soo much.


But anyways i've had a really good week:]
ive been in liike the best mood.
nd im dying my hair on thursday:D
jus needed to gett all that out haha

anyways its liike 20min to oneam so im gonna go to sleeep.
i gotta get upp for drivers ed ughhh

I am at a loss of words. bear with me haha

I'm not really sure what to talk about todayy. So i guess i'll jus babble about whatever pops into my head:]

...I am at a loss for words. hmm.

Ohokay how about how i started drivers ed yeshterday. Wellll ill update more on that later when we get more into itt haha.

Hmm. How bout how i hate when i thinkk of a really good idea nd then someone else takes it! ughh that reallllly annoys me! I've learned to keep my good ideas to myself until my idea takes place. I wish people would thinkk of there own ideas. ahh whatever.

Im done
i have to clean out my closet
haha what a pointless post.
blaah.
done.
bye.